Bekah on top of the world at the Juan Tabo Picnic GroundsI met up with Sarah last night for a much needed girls-night-out where we saw a movie and wound up talking for two hours over dessert. It was much needed conversation and I really enjoyed hanging out with her!
We talked a little about how sometimes it is hard to focus on what you need to and should be doing because there is something else occupying your mind and drawing your attention. For her there is a battle between her job - teaching, and her hobby - photography. If there was a scale present here it would be tipped toward the photography side for Sarah, just as it would be tipped toward decorating or crafting for me. On the other, slightly neglected/abandoned side of the scale would be my kids. I feel like I should be devoting a lot more time to teaching them things. Sit-down education. (Devil on my shoulder says: Come on, really what is so great about having overachiever children anyway? They'll learn abc's and spelling their names and all the presidents and states when they're in school.) And it's not even me doing something, it's me looking for something I'd like to do, searching blogs or websites and wandering my house wondering what I could get away with/afford/enjoy/produce successfully. I focus a lot of energy into finding projects and ideas that I would enjoy...if I would just put that same focus into finding and creating fun educational learning experiences for Jacob or Bekah it would probably be a much better use of my time. (Devil say: But then you'd be one of those people who stutter when trying to come up with a hobby they enjoy. personally. in their "free time")
But I don't want to change focus.
Well, I want to be that person, but more in a SuperWoman way, where a fountain of creative and fun ideas just spews forth from my brain so naturally and amazingly that angels sing and my children write poems about me. Haiku's.
Not really.
I think I want to want to be that person.
I'm confusing myself.
See the conundrum?
The world can be so fuzzy and convoluted...so much easier to dress it up with curtains and framed pictures than try to decipher it. (Angel on my shoulder says: Hehem..Liar, liar. You know that won't satisfy you. Not really. Go out there and give this whole "teach your kids things" a kick in the butt! NOW!)
Yes, ma'am.
2 comments:
What? You're not super woman? I was sure that you were ;) I still think you're more on top of the game than I am :P
Totally agree. With so much of that. Thanks Keri! Maybe we should be neighbors. At least we could commiserate on the same sofa, while secretly thinking of the next project we were going to tackle!
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